You know how bad things are seem to happen in multiples? Well in my life change, regardless of good or bad, happens in multiples. Ands lots of change, even change for the better, creates stress. Stress is no friend of mine, fer sure.
In the past few years I have been thru quite a lot. I have experienced all of the following things, presented here in no particular order-putting my kitty down, marriage, adopting two sickly kittens, childbirth, moving (twice), bankruptcy, a difficult, expensive and rare illness (gone now thankfully), divorce, a cross country trip with two kids under 8, three emergency room visits (one for each kid and me), dating for the first time in my life, giving away a kitty (due to moving), a knock-down, drag-out fight with a good friend and the loss of that friend, changing daycare providers twice, and now a custody battle. Through it all, being completely strapped financially, which stresses me out more than I can put into words.
Through it all I have kept blogging, albeit inconsistently. I so not out of any feeling of obligation, but more out of selfishness. You see blogging is one of the few things that is completely mine. It won’t go anywhere without me. it can’t disappointment me? it won’t throw up or pee on me. It won’t cost me of too much money. It can’t scream at me or hog the bed or eat the last bit of chocolate in the house. And I can treat it any way I want…wait a week to post or put up a flurry of short posts. I can scream at the world or share lyrical poetry. Thankfully it has been a wonderful constant in my life..
Another constant has been my job. I worked for 4+years as a web programmer for a law firm, but I decided to go another way. Today I started a new web programming job on a 6 month contract to hire project. It’s another stressor but also a blessing. My commute has been reduced from almost 3.5 hours a day down to 30 minutes. I don’t have to get up at the crack of dawn anymore, or chivvy my toddler to walk faster. It pays a little bit more. And best of all, it’s a new challenge. Today I have a positive overall feeling and I am enjoying it. Living in the moment is not my strong suit, so if you will, revel in my zen-like state today.